Why I returned to Islam?
For anyone who is considering reverting to Islam I strongly encourage you to do so. Don’t wait for your parents to accept it, don’t wait until you “know everything” about it.
My journey to Islam started many years ago. I always had an interest in religion and explored many religions prior to reverting to Islam.
Why do I say reverted? Since I believe that all people are born Muslims and then may or may not be raised in Islam by their parents.
I originally started out as a Roman Catholic. My parents sent me to a Catholic school, but they were pagans. They did not worship the true God of the Jews, Christians and Muslims. My father read tarot cards and believed that there was no god at all. My mother practised various forms of witchcraft, reading palms, reading tea leaves, peering into a crystal ball and speaking with the dead. (Of course I now know that this is all the result of evil jinn and shaitan).
My parents sent me to Catholic school so I would receive a “private education”. Of course I quickly became confused as to the existence of God and the whole idea of religion due to my parents’ influence. As time went on I studied various New Age belief systems, but they always seemed like hocuspocus and rang false. Then I became interested in Buddhism.
By this time my parents had become abusive towards me and my father would taunt me whenever he caught me praying saying “There is no God” or “God can’t help you”... So this only intensified my search...
Eventually I married and moved overseas. I went to Japan for 3 years. I was so excited as I thought I would learn all about Buddhism and become “enlightened”. Well, that isn’t what happened. I went to Japan and saw that the Japanese weren’t any more enlightened than we were! In fact some things that went on were worse than I expected!
Then I saw some Muslims in Uno Park. They held Juma prayer there each Friday. I remember staring at the women in hijab. They probably thought I was rude, but actually I was quite fascinated... But I didn’t approach them.
When I returned to the United States I still was interested in Islam, but I wasn’t able to find any reliable books on the subject at the local library and at that time did not have a computer. So I let the matter rest. But, Thank God! I started meeting Muslims everywhere I went! So eventually I worked up the courage to go to a Masjid and started studying. Eventually I made shahada and two weeks later my husband made shahada as well... Alhamdulillah!
That was a few years ago and I must say that since I converted to Islam I have been so happy! I won’t say it has been easy. I lost my entire family over it as they are not real happy about my reversion to Islam especially since I try to practise it the best way I can. My husband’s family has been more accepting than mine!
For anyone who is considering reverting to Islam I strongly encourage you to do so. Don’t wait for your parents to accept it, don’t wait until you “know everything” about it. That day may never come. Make your shahada and trust in Allah to take care of things from there!